Traces of Me

Hi you guys!! I wanted to write  a little of myself. I am studying history, I love learning about the  past, and how the earth evolved and changed. I love reading history, and can’t believe things happened before I was born. Pictures taken of the past, frozen for that one moment. I have been studying history for over 9 years, and I am into the holocaust and world war II.  My mother was born in Chile, and she grew up  in Chile and Australia. My love for my child, family and love of the for reading, keeps me happy. I grew up all over the world, I love learning about people culture, or way of life. I am hoping to travel next year, no I will. Some of the challenges of a single mom, is having that freedom, that pleasure to save up for that holiday. I grew up, with my father in the military. I love overseas, and I feel sometimes it was a dream. I think when I met a guy in the past, they never showed me their true selves. I think they have a mask on in the beginning, and for me I always trusted, what was in front of me.  I haven’t been out for awhile, just to the movies, and bookstore, does that count? No, lolol. My brother, said I need to go out to a lounge, or club. Honestly, I think for a single mom, you have to push yourself to go out. I will though, I feel if I was overseas, it would be easier to date, because the guys are more forward, and approaching. The guys here, it’s not like how it was  back then. Open the door for you, pay for your food. My ex, the guy I was seeing, opened the door, he had the smile, but he was playing a game. He wasn’t all bad, there was some nice qualities. But you have to think to yourself, and write. What weighs more, the bad or the good?

Quick Followup

I also wanted to add, on Friday, I will talk about when is it a good time, to give the goodies to your man you just met. As a single mom, it’s finding that person you want to share your life with, but the men don’t truly show themselves until later. If you don’t give all of you, in the beginning, will they be upset, or leave after the deed been done? I met guys that say the things you want to hear, I do actions are they key, and I will tell more Friday. I am trying to find myself and love myself, before this this relationship was known to me. I also will putting photos of historic places. Sorry, it took long to post, I really want you guys to know how hard for a single mom, to find love, without losing yourself. I will also tell you more about myself.

Relationship

My blog was going to be about history, but I think it will be also about Relationships. I am a single mom, and I haven’t had a real relationship for a very long time. It’s sometimes hard juggling job, kids, school, and having time for yourself.  I am 36, biracial. My mother is Spanish and my father is African American. I think I am pretty, but it’s been so hard to meet that special guy. It was so easy when I was younger, didn’t have to do much. I feel now, I don’t know how to flirt, I might need to take lessons.lol  Do I do online thing, or not. I don’t want to, because there is a lot of weird guys. The last guy hurt me really bad, I finally opened myself up, my life, my child, and I found out he was playing a game. He wanted me to change myself, to be what he wanted me to be. He didn’t want a serious relationship, and was not willing to open up. He never said anything romantic towards me, no holding hands in public.   It’s hard being a single mom, but this experience makes you stronger. In relationships, communication is the key, and laughter. As a single mom, you are juggling so much, you forget to just be goofy. I am trying to find that for myself, the last relationship, he broke my heart, I took the relationship serious, for him, I don’t give a f$$##.  I love history, finishing my classes to be a historian. Ladies, if you get hurt by a guy just stay busy in the things you love. Sometimes, I do, start thinking of my ex, and I can’t believe it, I think”he did all these things, you still like him.”  I do want to go on date, to the movies. What are the secrets to lasting love, lasting relationship?  I will post on Friday about this.  I am still hurting, but healing. It’s taking awhile, but I  want to start healing. I hope I am helping someone.